I Took My Face Out of Ministry on Purpose

People said it was sketchy. Then the Lord proved every one of them wrong.

I will be real with you, because we keep it raw over here. I slowed down. For a year I wrote and wrote and wrote, over a hundred and fifteen articles, and somewhere in there I got quiet. Not because I stopped believing the Lord planted me on this platform. I knew He did. I knew He was leading most of what came through my pen. But like every creative, I had my moments. Lord, is this in vain? What is it all for?

You all keep it real cute in the cut. You open the emails, you stay subscribed, you never say too much. I have a thirty to forty percent click through rate when most lists sit at fifteen to twenty, so I knew you were there. Still, when your audience is quiet, you learn to read love in the actions. But sometimes I wondered, Lord, do they even care?

Then He answered me in person. I was out after Bible study, grabbing a bite, when two sisters in Christ put it together. Wait. You are Locked in Christ? One of them said her heart went boom, boom, boom. They could not believe the emails they had been loving were coming from me. I had to pull up the app on my phone and show them. Hello, it is me.

And here is the part that wrecked me in the best way. They told me they loved that they do not know my face. You all know I keep my image out of this on purpose. I told the Lord from the start I did not want a ministry built on my looks. I wanted Him to get all the glory, and the Word to stand on its own. I felt wild asking Him for ministry that looked nothing like what I had seen before. I figured He would never approve. I was wrong. These women told me the facelessness was refreshing, that they did not know if I was a woman or a man, and they were here for it. Mission accomplished.

They told me to keep writing. They said I get into the things the church will not touch, and the timing be right, and even the gifs hit. That was the confirmation I needed. So no, I did not disappear. I stepped back, I let the cup refill, because writing that hard for that long takes something out of you and you have to let the Lord pour it back.

So this is not an I am back. I never fully left. This is an I am continuing. We just passed our anniversary, a whole year, over thirteen hundred followers and counting, and God has been so good through all of it.

To the girls I met, love you. You blessed me more than you know. To everyone reading in the cut, I really see you.

Stay forever locked in Christ.